it's spring in the presert

It's finally spring in the presert! You know how I know? The weather isn't really a good indicator, because it's still chilly especially at night. And the wind is blowing most of the time. Everything is turning green underneath the yellow. The pronghorn antelope are back, some with new babies. There are more birds out and about. We have ravens all year, so it's good to see something else. Once again the bugs are slowly becoming greater in numbers. Little baby bunnies can be seen. Wildflowers are beginning to pop up and my trees are starting to get leaves. The rancher has calves among his herd. It's still too cold in the school bus to start seeds, so I wait patiently. I've learned the mistake of starting seeds too early and losing everything. This is what I call fake spring. Colorado has it too, and so does Montana. It bridges the gap between winter and summer. It might rain or snow or hail, you never know. It's in the 70s and 80s during the day, and 20s and 30s at night. This is usually the windiest month of the year. We've had wind advisories for a month now, pretty much daily. Snakes are plentiful. And we all wait in vain for spring. It won't arrive. Just the hot of summer. Already skulking around the days. Cacti are getting ready to flower. The presert struggles to survive, as always. Without moisture, with too much sun, and a skoshe of hope. Ceeeej 

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