Diary of a Mad Woman Gone Sane

Happy New Year! I apologize for being away so long. It has been quite a time. All is well here. I had emergency neck surgery. I'm recovering pretty well. It's slow going. I've had to do a lot of resting. I still can't lift a lot or overdo it too much. The headaches are gone, and the numbness in my fingers and toes is mostly gone. I'm feeling better every day. Going through another surgery without Joe was a challenge. He's been gone almost 9 years, and I still miss him every day. I grieve him while grieving all the time he's missed. We lost our Luna Jade in August to cancer, right after I had surgery. Thankfully I had someone to help me get her buried. She was my first dog I got out here. She was 3 weeks old when I got her. She was supposed to be drowned the day I got her, with all her siblings. I miss her so much!! I keep looking outside expecting to see her lying in the sun. I'd like to believe that she's with Kiwi dog and Flynn dog and Joe. I don...

6 and a half years ago I arrived in the presert and I was not prepared for the life I was going to have here. It's been very difficult and lots of FFT's (fucking first times). I've wanted to give up and go back to the world. I've been told by many that I couldn't do it. I'm so grateful I did not give up. I've done so much I never thought I'd do. I've proven to myself that I am truly mighty and brave. I own my life and my home. I've gained much from this experience. I'm not sure if I will be here forever, but I am here for now. I get to live however I choose out here. I'm finding peace and love for myself and freedom. I highly recommend moving out to the middle of nowhere to find yourself. Looking forward to more adventures in the presert! Thank you for joining me on this voyage, Ceeeej