Older
Recently I was on the Internet, dangerous, I know. I saw some comments on a person's page stating that older people are no longer valuable. This person is my age. I'm 52. I was shocked! I'm a much better person than I was in my 20s or 30s. When I was younger I was angry underneath, I was trying to hide everything that I had been through. I was very concerned with my appearance and I wasn't always nice. I had giant walls up all the time. As I become older, I realize how much time I wasted on nonsense. Worrying about what others thought of me. Having to look a certain way. Fretting over boys. Spending too much time doing what I thought I was supposed to be doing. Bickering over who was right. Caring about others' perceptions of me. Not being present. Trying to be perfect. So much wasted energy. I realize now the incredible amount of energy I gave to things and people that didn't matter. Things I have no control over. Now I see that I was trying to not be found out...