Diary of a Mad Woman Gone Sane

Happy Tuesday, my people! Recently I was talking to one of my closest friends, she's known me since I was in my 20s, about my recovery, and she asked me how I did it. Thanks to her, I will share what has worked for me. In the beginning, I found it rather easy not to drink. I'd just had my hip replaced and I was on opioids and I was incredibly wobbly. It didn't make sense for me to drink. At the suggestion of my therapist, I broke up with alcohol. I found it helpful for me to make alcohol into a no contact relationship. Like a toxic relationship with a person, alcohol became more damaging than good, so I imagined that we had a restraining order between us. This was easy due to my previous dysfunctional romance, that ended two months before I got sober. I just thought of beer like I thought of him. No contact.  Not drinking was easy until I came home. Back to the presert, back to the school bus. On the way home it was so difficult not to stop and get a 6 pack. I needed someth...

after a couple hours  Happy 420 friends! Today some will celebrate Easter and some will celebrate cannabis. Either is fine with me, however I wish people wouldn't wish me a happy Easter, but they thought of me. Today I am grateful. We, the animals and I, endured a surprise winter storm. The only one this winter. The winter has been dry and windy and cold. It's been an odd one. I wasn't prepared for a storm so I don't have much wood cut up. My solar power went out due to being covered in snow, and my electric heater. I got at least 8 inches, if not more, of heavy wet snow. I was told later that we got over a foot of snow. Visibility was zero. The fence was filled with snow. The snow lasted longer than expected by the weather people. My chimney had blown off and I didn't want to make a fire for fear of smoking us out. After losing power from using my heater, I put on a bunch of clothes and grabbed a blanket. I waited for the power to come back on and tried...

Good day to all of you that read my blog! Spring is trying to spring here. It just snowed a week or so ago. A year ago, I had a hip replacement. I'd put it off for 3 decades, but I could put it off no longer. The pain was excruciating and I had such horrible arthritis that my hip just looked like a puff of smoke. Like a magic trick had just been performed and the magician had disappeared. I was scared to take this journey without my dear husband. I had to put my trust in some of my friends. I didn't know if I could rely on these people but I didn't have much choice. Looking back I could have gone to a rehab center, but I didn't feel comfortable doing that. I'm not a big fan of the medical system. I had asked a friend to take care of my animals while I was gone. And he happily agreed. My dogs know and love him, so I knew he would be safe. I had my surgery and went to another friend's house to recover. Things went relatively smoothly for about 2 weeks, and then I ...