Diary of a Mad Woman Gone Sane

after a couple hours  Happy 420 friends! Today some will celebrate Easter and some will celebrate cannabis. Either is fine with me, however I wish people wouldn't wish me a happy Easter, but they thought of me. Today I am grateful. We, the animals and I, endured a surprise winter storm. The only one this winter. The winter has been dry and windy and cold. It's been an odd one. I wasn't prepared for a storm so I don't have much wood cut up. My solar power went out due to being covered in snow, and my electric heater. I got at least 8 inches, if not more, of heavy wet snow. I was told later that we got over a foot of snow. Visibility was zero. The fence was filled with snow. The snow lasted longer than expected by the weather people. My chimney had blown off and I didn't want to make a fire for fear of smoking us out. After losing power from using my heater, I put on a bunch of clothes and grabbed a blanket. I waited for the power to come back on and tried...

Today the wind is blowing, fiercely. This is not a new thing out here, but I still have a response to it, as it shakes my bus. Rewind to 3 years ago. My first winter here. My ex was working in town, so I was alone in the presert. The bus was rocking wildly. I was cold and afraid. The wood burning stove was filling the bus with smoke and wood was broken pallets mostly. This was one of the worst winters here and definitely the most horrible winter I'd experienced in my life. Fast forward a year, my first winter alone in the presert. Thank goodness for my dogs! I had been convinced that I would fail. That I couldn't survive out here. The wind was howling as it does today. I was not cold, but I was terrified. I was no longer burning pallets and the wood stove was keeping me warm. By this point, I was unable to keep my tears at bay, so I would lie in bed and bawl. Sometimes uncontrollably. Today I am into my 4th winter. I don't lie in bed and cry. I still don't enjoy the win...