Diary of a Mad Woman Gone Sane

Recently I have had some extra challenges to manage, along with regular life shit. I am now 6 months sober. A fact that I am super proud of. Being sober can be more stressful and more difficult, because there's no longer a buffer between me and life. I no longer lean on the crutch of alcohol, and I have to face life head on now. The sober life is definitely better than the drinking life, however it's very different. Sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is incredibly heavy. In those times I've found the best thing to do is to be grateful. Sometimes it's just something small. It may be gratitude for what isn't going wrong. I feel like most of the time I'm so blessed, but at times I forget. Living life without my person might be a reason I forget to be grateful. Even if life looks horrible, there is always something to be grateful for. When we are grateful for what we have, life gives us more to be grateful for. Waking up every morning. Havin...

Recently I returned to civilization, for a short amount of time, to visit some people. It was very interesting, especially travelling with a 15 month old Malinois puppy. Everything was new to Loca and it provided me a different perspective. She did really well, considering she's a puppy! I've been off grid for 6 years next month. And Loca has lived with me for a year. I used to belong in many of the places that I went to, but that's no longer the case. I felt uncomfortable and crowded. There was so many people everywhere and sounds and vehicles. I missed the night sky. We stayed in hotels, which is where the above picture was taken. I was perplexed as to why this warning was necessary. After being around people for a week I understood. The world is a very different place than it was when I moved out here. Perhaps I didn't realize it because I don't visit the large cities nearby. It was a great time with my friends and family, but I was sad for the condit...